Desperation

Desperation overwhelms me, leaves me feeling confused
Left hurting inside whilst your words leave me bruised
My defences were weak; you drew me into your abysses 
Sinking deeper into pure darkness; I am fighting to resist


I should have known better because history always shows
You were the wolf in disguise only wearing sheep's clothes 
Subdued feelings of such frustration, sadness and despair
Wishing your words did not hurt me and I could not care


You make me want to retreat into myself to just hide away
Help me block out the venom and the games that you play
The child that lives within me just wants to keep running
I should have recognised the signs or seen this one coming


I will not feel anger, bitterness nor resentment or dismay
At some point in the near future I will look back on this day
Desperation will have left me; the darkness will be no more
I feel light shining within me providing guidance once more


(c) Nicola Marinkovic

Christmas Time

That special time is upon us for December is here

The time of joyous celebration, giving and cheer

Small children write letters to send to Santa Claus

Innocence and beauty that I wish we could pause

Christmas trees, decorations take over our home

Families spend time together, parties are thrown

The history of baby Jesus, how this day came to be

Played out whilst the children sing 'Little Donkey'

The shops become hectic as many will try to find
Special gifts for one another, thoughtful and kind
Christmas carols are being sung by people nearby
The smell of roast chestnuts, a taste of mulled wine

A time for reflection on the year that has gone by
Reminding us all once again how quickly time flies

Enjoying time together with the ones you hold dear

Have a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year

(c) Nicola Marinkovic